Fear of Failure GONE

This past Friday's heart-to-heart with my dearest friend Mervin (popularly known as Moo) got me thinking about taking my blog seriously and the importance of contributing to other fashion blogs when asked. A 'Fear of Failure' had gripped Baldie. Little did she know that all she needed was a trip to Borders, a new pair of good quality tights, an overdue heart-to-heart over a good bottle of wine and a walk in the rain to get back on track.

This is what I wore on the day of my enlightenment. Moo, someone whose sense of style I really respect and whose love I doubt I could do without, was the photographer.

Clothing - Country Road knit and Isabel Marant skirt
Accessories - Prada sunglasses, BVLGARI earrings, ring and watch, Sportsgirl cuff, Louis Vuitton bag, Chanel flats and Jonathan Ashton tights

Saturday night fever...

Saturday night and I'm home alone drinking the finest French white my money can buy and listening to bootleg reggae cds I bought on a recent-ish trip to St Lucia. I had an amazing time and one day soon I'll write all about it. I'll write about the flight there, the natural beauty of the first St Lucians I saw, the landscape, The Landings where I stayed, the beaches, my first Friday night in Gros Islet, the Naija beats I heard when I was chilling on the patio of a not-so-upmarket but tight bar called Castros, the prostitutes, the rastas, the food and my toothache issue and about an amazing, almost supernatural, beauty therapist who changed my life. She had an aura. Perhaps a power. When I was in her presence I felt at peace like I had met my guardian angel slash beauty therapist. She paid me the biggest compliment and since then I've never looked at myself in the mirror and been so unkind to myself again.

I've been fortunate enough to go to one of the most magical destinations in this world. I plan on going to Barbados, Jamaica and Trinidad in a few-ish months. Come with me!

What's a girl to do?

Sunday afternoon and I'm confused as usual.

Should I stay in, paint my nails and read my favourite blogs all afternoon? Should I call my dear friend in Shanghai who's never been (and never will be) romantically interested in me and who I've neglected for months? Should I begin the process of tracking down a Naija fashion commentator I highly respect? Should I walk approximately 600metres to my second home, Kino Cinema, and watch Sofia Coppola's Somewhere? Should I walk three blocks to MYER (equivalent of House of Fraser, Macy's or whatever) and check out homewares? Should I pour myself another glass of this good-for-budget Sauv Blanc I snapped up at Vintage Cellars yesterday afternoon and make a plan after the last bit of it is gone?

I might pour a wee bit more, check on some mince meat I've taken out of the freezer to thaw and text Mr Shanghai. I never thought I'd be planning my meals like I am but budgeting does incredible things to a city girl. My ex, Mr Big-ish, is away skiing in Vermont so I'm not fine dining or dining period. This l'il mama is heading home straight after work and attempting to recreate her mum's dishes. Dishes cooked with love. Real love.

PAUSE

I might just hang out at home for a couple more hours and then call her before I head out. She'll be up in 2ish hours and I can't wait to talk to her. I can't wait to hear her voice and her contagious laugh. I can't wait to tell her exactly whats on my mind career-wise, moving-home-wise, relationship-wise, travel-wise etc. I can always count on her for the absolute truth. How many people can give you that?

Thought I might share my goddess with you.

The parents (Elliot and Eve)

My mom 'keeping it gangster' on a fishing trip

Compliments of the New Year!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope this is the year that so many of us celebrate our uniqueness, accept our flaws and count our blessings.

This is the year I hope to permanently move back to Zimbabwe so I intend on taking time out each day to be still and reflect on the day's happenings. I live in the city sharing my treasured spaces with so many different people - I hope to remember names of baristas, waiters, sales assistants, cashiers, couriers and the two or three street sweepers I see almost everyday. I hope to remember that the footpath isn't mine alone and the crab-walking isn't cute. I hope to remember to smile instead of hiss at people I catch staring at me (its the bald head) and to refrain from cussing people out at work.

• I hope my boss approves my leave so I can travel to London this April.
• I hope my parents get-it-together and sort out their UK visas for April.
• I hope I'm invited to a hush-hush Prada sale later this month.
• I hope my iPhone doesn't die on me any time soon.
• I hope something comes up social-scene-wise so I can finally wear my Hermes Lilanga scarf.

Hermes Lilanga scarf (inspired by George Lilanga's artwork)

PS - I, like you, also hope for good health and a pay-rise:)

Goodbye 28

It's the day after my 29th birthday and I feel good. So so fuckin' good!!!!!!

I just want to open the door, stand on the balcony and shout it out. My no-money neighbours would be chuffed, the new-money ones would be appalled and just give me dirty looks but my old-money ones would write me a letter of complaint on the finest paper mulla can buy and someone from the Body Corporate crew would ring me first thing Monday morning to discuss the 'incident'. So... there will be no shouting anything out. I'll simply put on some reggae tunes, write a little and boogie the afternoon away in my fluffy robe.

So much has happened since my last post. I simply don't know where to start. I've been eating less take-out, drinking less cheap wine and watching less dodgy films. Yes. I'm a better human being now that I'm not constantly bloated + hungover and searching high and low for my glasses before sprinting off to work. Since a country getaway a couple of weeks ago, I've started thinking about a healthier lifestyle and what organic 'this and that' I can afford. I've found a new GP, a South African who understands lobola and why I need my skin to look like that of a newborn. Also, I've started culling people in my life who don't seem to add value and I guess I'm on the road to mending true friendships I didn't value and loved ones I've neglected along my merry way.

Fashion-wise... I snapped up a pair of Alexander McQueen pumps that 'spoke to me' at the Miss Louise super sale. Had to get ghetto on some ladies to get to where my bad boys were. Oh they look so good but they hurt like hell:(

Then a few days later, I finally bought something that I had put on my vision board, a Herve Leger dress. I bought my first Freakum Dress after seeing a Naija fashionista rocking one on Bella Naija, researching the construction of the dresses and eyeing all the different styles for close to two years. On the night of its purchase, I'd also been thinking about a recent-ish trip to Singapore where I almost did the plunge.

Rewind to Singapore
Defensive Angie walked into the ION Herve Leger boutique in full geek mode and minutes later emerged from the dressing suite (not changing room) looking tastefully thick and quite sumptuous. I looked like a star. While the sales associate squealed with glee and handed me a sparkling water, I was calculating what buying a dress would mean financially. I could hardly breathe in my favourite style but purchasing it would mean I'd have to put it on two cards. I felt like a trillion dollars but I'd been raised by two accountants and I just couldn't do it. It didn't make financial sense. I left feeling rather deflated and headed straight to good ol' ZARA where I found a tunic that did.

Today
The grainy image of my dress is no longer on my vision board now that my Freakum Dress hangs in my wardrobe. Just an image of a blue Bottega Veneta Knot Clutch remains...

Musings of an Empress

I just got off the phone with a new-ish dear friend of mine. Funny how people become part of your life without you really knowing much about them at the beginning and not much more even with time. My friend, who we shall call Bambino, is young man I'm certain is going places. I don't know how to explain it but I've got this gut feeling that he most definitely is. He doesn't know but I'm extremley proud of him. I'm so proud. Despite all his years studying architecture in the West, he hasn't forgotten home and the importance of giving back to a society that has shaped the young man he is today. Bambino is determined to make some serious money but also to make a difference. A real difference. Not a day goes by that I don't acknowledge how blessed I am. I'm so blessed. I'm so fortunate to know him.

Fast-forward before the call

Before the 40 minute or so chit chat with Bambino, I was sitting around with my apartment-mate discussing our summer clothing purchases and debriefing her on today's lunch with my ex. Lunch was fun and the food sensational! Thought I might share what I wore with you.

Clothing - ZARA jacket, Missoni Sport top, Levis jeans

Accessories - Kazuri earrings, Barneys New York bag, BVLGARI watch and ring, Scanlan and Theordore belt, Sergio Rossi pumps, ring from India and cheap+cheerful eyewear from China

My faithful Sergio Rossi's

I love Sergio Rossi shoes for their timelessness, sexiness and comfort. I can stand all day, boogie all night and run after a cab in all the pairs I've bought. Viva Sergio Rossi!

Baldie returns

Oh what a Busy and Not-So-Busy Bear I've been. I've seen so much fashion-wise but read so little about my passion over the last couple of weeks. I've felt a little out of my depth. A little over-eating here and a few too many wines there are also to blame. Life is so good!

Summer is fast-approaching and I could not be happier. Melbourne's blazing summer reminds me of Harare's heat and my city's inhabitants with shiny foreheads and enviable skin tones. I long to be home. I find myself looking at housewares thinking of my home at home. Something to call my own. Just yesterday I was in the glassware section of my favourite department store (after Selfridges) looking at wine glasses I'd only dreamed of owning. Funny how a little spending power years later changes all that.

I spent hours looking at small appliances and crockery then moved on to cutlery. With cutlery, it became a case of 32 pieces versus 56 pieces, contemporary versus classic and matte satin finish versus high shine silver-plated. The 'Made in Vietnam' and 'Made in China' issue became a non-issue but I was still struggling. Andrew, a sales assistant deserving of a medal, quickly came to my aid 'breaking everything down' brand by brand and collection by collection. I told him of my return to Zimbabwe and the importance of cookware, tableware, glassware, furnishings etc that have longevity and that are heavy-duty. As soon as I got home, I poured myself a stiff drink and toasted to my new love...housewares:)